Personal Note XXIX

Yahweh in (יהוה‎):
Moses and the Burning Bush

Self-image |
Monday – December 5, 2026

In my post about self-awareness, I didn't touch on the topic of self-image, an aspect of life in the modern world that has become increasingly important in these confusing times of individualism. Before I try to explain how I conceive of self-image, allow me to explain what my own self-imagine is, something I lightly discussed recently in my previous post in this series. I do not view myself highly from a material point of view, and this is not because I hate myself, not at all, but I choose to always view myself as the ugly creature that I am, a human and a human that—despite my many attempts to distance myself from the world—very much is a product of my times. See, there's disease and corruption all around me, and the only thing I can expect from this, that would be reasonable, would of course be that the disease should invade me as well, but I can choose as well to exercise caution and discipline and really skillfully interact with the material domain, but this won't save me completely. The fancy thing to do is of course to be tolerant, something that means in our times to accept every flaw and every imperfection, as if all there is to say about the world deserves to be sustained, and yes this is true for the serpent, but this attitude makes you weak and evermore susceptible to disease and moral corruption, but still more important than that, this makes you susceptible to intellectual corruption, or really a lack of knowledge, and in whatever knowledge you may have attuned there is no true depth and no true insight. All of these things play an important role in your own self-image, and I can say this much about your self-image, even though I've never met or known you: you're self-image is very likely vastly distorted and disconnected from reality; indeed there's a dissonance between your true self and your image of yourself. Most men are profoundly capable of gaining insight, although not all men, but most choose not to—a sign of our times, the Kali Yuga—because they've been told not to, and because accepting the judgement of the revolutionary elite is the right thing to do in the material domain. This is why I keep a poor material self-image, because I do not require delusion: I know that I am very much not what people would like me to be, nor will I ever become that thing, but this I am contained with, but the serpent would very much like me to not be contained with who I am. This however, does not mean that I can never improve myself, but to improve myself is something entirely different from me seeking material gain, and that's the problem: you can only seek to "improve" yourself if you believe that doing so would increase your chances of material success, only this is your driving force in life. In a sense, you're sleep walking and this is all by design. So yes, I remain content with my own low self-image, again low-self image in a material sense. I choose to keep a low self-image, because I choose to interact with the material domain skillfully.

    What then is self-image? Well, from a metaphysical point of view, I must admit that I am very open to just outright reject this concept of a self-image all together, because I find that this concept is a product of the rampant individualism of our times: never in the past did men need to define themselves by seemingly arbitrary standards, because their entire existence was defined by who they were on a sincere and sometimes almost rustic and simple level, but this was never about simplicity. Yes, people didn't have the time to go around and worry about such foolish things as self-image, and this is the short and material explanation. But on a deeper level, it's true that a man that knows himself and knows his own purpose in the world, a man that is grounded and anchored in the world, has no need to keep defining himself, because that man knows himself, inside and out. In our days of material confusion and social chaos, men do not know themselves because they are no longer anchored in the world with a clear and defined purpose; instead modern men find themselves drifting in the ocean, lost to the currents of the moment and competing against each other in a Darwinian race to the bottom. Well, this is confusion and really a precursor to mental illness. Yes, how can a man be well in his self-image if he has no reason to justify to himself that he is sane? Modern men are quite frankly not sane; this is a requirement in the material domain. To be a modern man is necessarily injurious to your mental health.

    So, while my self-image can be described as determinedly poor, this is by my own design, and this further adds to my wish to remain anonymous: who I am is of no importance to this blog or indeed to history, because that was always the case. I choose not to be a victim of individualism. This is hard, but life in the material domain is hard and the sooner people realize this, the sooner they can acquire skillful means, and the sooner they can see the light.

Reginald Drax – January 5, 2026.