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Personal Note LIII

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Yahweh in (╫Щ╫Ф╫Х╫Ф‎) : Moses and the Burning Bush Personal Disintegration | Tuesday – September 1, 2026 P ersonal Disintegration is quite a painful thing to experience, but it is something that I have faced many times in my life, and it is something that I am currently going through, read " Despair ". I am facing multiple problems at once, including my diseased gallbladder , and all of these things have served to make my life rather miserable, but still I am here and still I have a certain mission, read " Dreaming ", and at the moment I feel distant from my mission, and from my purpose. In the end, we may conclude that a completely closed and mechanical system requires no God , and that we should be happy in this mechanical delusion , if it was that simple that is. Of course, it is not that simple, and even most profane scientists would admit to this, but they would also distance themselves from any perception of "suspect" sympathies, but this is a story for...

Home – Again | Freestyle

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Local Masjid ( ┘Еَ╪│ْ╪мِ╪п ) (Mosque) in Side, by M. C. Dutt Home – Again | Monday – August 17, 2026 H ome, sweet home... They say. Because after all, why should my home be confined? Why should my home be defined? Why should home be preordained, read " My Views on 'Neighbours' "? Am I destined or am I right where I belong? Again, a home is not merely a house or an apartment, or even the country you happen to reside in. A home is a community, a society , something that transcends time and space and individuality; a home is something that is not defined by one person alone, and something that is not dependent on the moment. Yes, in our world it is very much necessary to define a home by what it is not, by the negative, which perhaps and hopefully should be telling enough, read " Modern Civilization ".      Yes, I am now officially back from my trip in Side, T├╝rkiye, read more about that here, and I must say that this is a good time for reflections and for commenta...

Personal Note LII

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Yahweh in (╫Щ╫Ф╫Х╫Ф‎) : Moses and the Burning Bush My Outlook | Monday – August 3, 2026 I have had a lot of issues this year, as I covered in " Steady As She Goes ", and really so far it does not appear to be the case that anything in my life is going to go easier. Now I suppose that I can say that God is not on my side, but I would rather say that I am distant from God at the moment. Now, that may or may not be my fault; it just too early to tell, read my " Personal Notes series ". I can cry over my problems, but I do not wish to cry, and besides my problems are actually not that large, but because my outlook is rather bleak I tend to look at the world with a bad feeling, because I do have a bad feeling and I do have a bad outlook, but sometimes it does not help to think too much about the future. If the future is certain, I know that I need to continue what I am doing, which is why my motto has been "Steady As She Goes" this year and so far. I believe quit...

Despair – Freestyle

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Melencolia I By Albrecht D├╝rer Despair | Saturday – August 1, 2026 F or me, despair is really a process of change, and currently I am in that process. Now, I cannot speak for despair itself and I cannot predict its next victim. I do however know that the world used to be a better place, read " Is the Future the Enemy? "; in fact, it would be impossible for it to be any other way. Ask yourself this: are you getting any younger and healthier ? No, and you will not get any younger and any heather either. Your condition is a lost cause, and in the end you will rot and you will die , and whatever sign of you still left in the afterlife will soon be gone. This is the way of life and this is the way of nature, truly cyclical. The only hope you have for resurrection in this life is by your bloodline, read " Should You Create a Family? ", unless of course you seek higher knowledge . But since you are unlikely to seek, let alone receive higher knowledge, you are stuck in you...

Cars – Freestyle

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Crucifixion-Lynching, by Irving Amen Cars | Wednesday – July 29, 2026 I am still under the weather over here, and because of this I am just not able to keep up with all of this writing; so, do bear with me. But I did still have some thoughts to share about cars, and yes the picture that I have decided to feature has nothing to do with cars, as far as I can tell, but I do believe that it captures my feelings towards cars, because, for the most part at any rate, I do not enjoy cars very much, and I really do not enjoy what cars do and have done to the world. Besides, it is my staunch opinion that as long as men are capable of walking, men should walk. Of course, that is easier said than done, but I am also no puritan in this regard; of course I have been traveling in cares on occasion, especially when I am unable to get from destination A to destination B by merely walking, but I have respect for walking and in turn my own body, and this is something that you may not say about most peop...

Personal Note LI

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Yahweh in (╫Щ╫Ф╫Х╫Ф‎) : Moses and the Burning Bush My Current Medical Problems | Monday – July 27, 2026 I continue to suffer from medical problems , and they have now reached a point where it has become necessary for me to explain myself a little bit more, as these problems will likely have some effect on my ability to continue to head and write this blog. The main issue that I am currently suffering from is something called gallstones. Now, gallstones, at least in my case, are not a serious medical issue that will lead to my death, at least not immediately, but gallstones do create a lot of pain, and this pain is the primary reason why I have ended up in the hospital on several occasions at this point. The biggest issue that I am likely to face is that my gallbladder becomes inflamed and/or infected; that has not happened yet and I hope that it will not happen. I am scheduled for surgery come the autumn, which means that I am going to remain somewhat compromised until my gallbladder has ...

Personal Note L

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Yahweh in (╫Щ╫Ф╫Х╫Ф‎) : Moses and the Burning Bush Why I Don't Smoke | Wednesday – July 22, 2026 I may come across as a hypocrite, which I am , whenever I write these blog posts , especially when I write about smoking, a subject I still keep returning to apparently , but there are many reasons why I choose not to smoke, but before I get into those, allow me to just again admit that I am a hypocrite, but so are you and everyone else on Earth; I can almost assure you that there has not been a single man walking this Earth that at some point did not contradict himself and his beliefs . So yes, to the extent that I do not smoke I am a hypocrite and I will stand for it without attempting to lie and manipulate, regardless of my reasons for choosing not to smoke, because the reasons, while they may matter, are actually not important when we consider someone a hypocrite, and yes again I am that someone, a hypocrite in this case. Also, I am still a hypocrite, while I have advocated the benefic...

Personal Note XLIX

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Yahweh in (╫Щ╫Ф╫Х╫Ф‎) : Moses and the Burning Bush Smoking | Wednesday – July 8, 2026 S moking is a subject that I keep returning to, and if you wish to read all about it on this blog, click on this link . You see, for me smoking represents something rather full. Modern life is not that full, not even when we consider the material monstrosity of this civilization . So, what can a man do to rest his case at the end of the day? Is he supposed to just sit down and allow it all to sink in? Yes and preferably so, but you see, most men are not capable of this feat and so they need to smoke, drink alcohol, or take heroin; there seems to be no way around this little inconvenient fact – addiction . Of all addictions in the world, which one is the least bad? I would say smoking, because alcohol will destroy the liver and heroin will, for the most part, be illegal , and so most men, if they actually apply some skills in their approach to life, are left with having to smoke, they have very little to...

Steady As She Goes

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Lily of the valley inflorescence Steady As She Goes | Thursday – July 2, 2026 H alfway through yet another dastardly year and I feel fine, all things considered. Yes, I did recently suffer from a medical episode, which you can read more about here , but all things considered I cannot say that 2026 has been a blessed year or a devilish year, but then again what else could I possibly expect during these times of great strides, really of tribulations, read " Disintegration "? I guess I feel that the end is near, or rather nearer ... Ha ha ha ha! I guess I can laugh at that at least, but seriously the world is in a very bad shape and it is just too easy to brush it off and descend into the darkness, but if there is anything I have been taught by my own tribulations so far this year it is that nothing good will ever come from not resisting , even if I only resist in a passive capacity , because after all I have not been given another choice by The Creator , and as such I will obli...

The Road Ahead

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Hindu ( реР ) depiction of Rama ( рд░ाрдо ) and Lakshmana ( рд▓рдХ्рд╖्рдордг ) in the Ramayana ( рд░ाрдоाрдпрдгрдо् ) The Road Ahead | Saturday – June 27, 2026 H aving gone through a minor medical emergency, read more here , I am a little bit shaken right now. I also realize that these things happen in life and that I can draw a certain amount of strength from this latest damp in my life, read " The Metaphysics of Adversity ". It is true that I have been unlucky quite a lot recently, but then again that is only one perspective, and who can really say that I have been more or less lucky? Again, after all we do live under the reign of the Kali Yuga, and if things deteriorate and disintegrate , this should be just as well, or rather I should have expected this already, which I did. Yes, I did anticipate that I would meet many challenges ahead and I have encountered them in the past, and really this is actually not something to be too afraid of, and after all I am better in terms of my health anyways no...