Medical Emergency, Part 3 – Freestyle

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Medical Emergency Update |
Thursday – June 25, 2026

I am now back "home" from my hospitalization or from my latest medical episode, which is a step in the right direction, I hope I can say. I hope too that I will be able to stay out of any further hospitalization, at least in the foreseeable future. Of course, I am a fairly private person and as I have stated many times previously on this blog: I am a profoundly private person and my mission with this blog has never been to extol myself or reveal too much about myself, but again since I have made quite a fuss about my current medical situation is has also become impossible for me not to mention it on this page, partly because I cannot function properly due to my compromised state and partly because I need to actually finish this chapter of my life, or really I need to reach some kind of conclusion/resolution. My hope is that I am going to be able to fully recover in the coming days. I should also add that while I may still be somewhat delirious from my medical condition and that this may also compromise some of my writing, none of what I have written has been incorrect, at least not from a subjective point of view. Now, you may say that it does not matter whether or not the subjective point of view is correct or not; if the objective point fails to come across properly, I still have a problem, and while this is partly true there is simply nothing I can do about this now. Besides, my praxis is to not change old blog posts, unless there is something that is so apparently incorrect that it leaves me without any other options but to change them. For instance: any grammatical and/or spelling errors that are older than a week, I simply will not change, and since I do not have access to a secretary who can help me and guide me through every petty little detail, you (my readers) are simply going to have to accept a certain level of error. This is also not to say that I accept imperfection, because I do not, but it is to say that I simply have practical limitations like any other human being, and since the main purpose of this blog is different from grammatical perfection I do not anticipate any major and adverse problems with this. Now, if you have a problem with the certain amount of error and imperfection that you are likely to find on this page, then you may write to me or simply leave and go somewhere else; no-one is forcing you to read this blog, at least I am not. Besides, as I have stated elsewhere, I take very little interest in what my readers think about this page, because the purpose of this page is entirely about my mission, read "Dreaming", and should not be taken as a vanity project for my own individual. Besides, if I was interested in my own vanity, then I would not engage in this and I would not take my own mission seriously. Also, me taking "my own mission seriously" has nothing to do with my individuality either as this mission that I am on has already provided me with a necessary separation between me and the all, between the small time and the large time, because sometimes a separation or delineation of this kind if actually quite necessary, read "The Problem of Borders".

    Also, while I am on the road to recovery I have been provided with the opportunity to think a little bit about my own position in the world, here I am not separating my individuality from my mission, and a couple of things are true about my life today that I seek to change: for one, I no longer have any interest in caring about what other people think, that is something that is now a part of the past; I also do not give a shit about being right for the purpose of being right, because if righteousness serves no purpose, then that word has no meaning, which is very much reinstatement of the modern world and I refuse to engage in that kind of insanity, because it is truly insane, read "My Views on Mental Illness"; and I am also done with trying to figure out where my mission aligns or intersects with my ambition, because ambition is actually something quite bad and really something that the Buddha (सिद्धार्थ गौतम) was right about all those decades and centuries ago. Of course, the temptation has always been there, to confuse my mission with my ambition and that is something that I seek to end right now. Now, it is often hard to change, but if I can achieve that separation of my individual from my mission, then there will actually be nothing to change, and if you wish to call this a kind of "ego death" then I suppose that this would be a good word, or rather a word that would describe what I am seeking quite good. Yes, there is, of course, a certain tension here between what I have just been stating and my words, or really there is a actually a cognitive dissonance going on here as my words seemingly keep contradicting themselves, but that is a feature of the English language and since the English language is centered on the individual (I and me) it is quite hard to not attack any problem from a point of view that is not entirely parochial and individual, even though this is not the purpose of these reflections. But it is certainly the case that I, as well as most other people, would be better off without an ego, but again this is something quite hard or even inconceivable in the English language, and is actually a good reason for me to eventually move past the English language, read "Notes on Reading".

    In terms of the rest of this page, I am not guided by my own will or my own ambition, and my time will come when it will come. For now, I am enduring one chapter of my life and really one chapter of the greater life beyond myself, and whenever this chapter has been written I will be aware more than I can express in this one short post. Again, I have no reason to write this page beyond my call, beyond my mission and once my mission is over, this page is also over, at least from a symbolical point of view, and indeed this is not only true for me, but at least I am able and capable of accepting this, whereas most people will go on in life to never accept their fate, to never accept the fact that they too must die and that even the large time must come to and end, read "The Eschatology of the Kali Yuga".

    I will continue to make more updates on this page in the following days as I continue to recover from my medical condition. For more information you may also read my "Political Notes page".

Reginald Drax (AKA, M. C. Dutt) – June 25, 2026.